21 December
What I often fail to realize is that she's on my side. She would love to see me succeed. She would be disappointed if I don't come out good. I know my life shouldn't revolve around that, it's not. But if I ever fail to achieve the goals I set out for me, she won't be responsible ever. You know I always dreamt something like this. I got it now and I am just letting it go. I am a plain simple guy who was in love with a plain and simple girl. She didn't fell for me. This is a fact, there could be infinite number of reasons and even more number of explanations, but they don't matter. What should matter is am I moving the way I would want myself to move, and the ideas that I can still do this and that, They are not negative ideas, but I should realise that there is a big chance that I might never see her in my life again. Now I can stop everything and go after her, stalk her, and maybe try to convince her into loving me back, But is that a solution, no, it ain't. What I did learn was that I am not perfect, and I have to improve a great deal before I get close to being one. One way is to be someone she would have wanted her guy to be. What happens if I don't get her, it isn't a big deal. But for that to happen I have to become something that she would love. If it never happens, at least I'll have a story to tell my grand kids. My daughter, that your daddy loved a girl. Now a grand gift that can be given to her is to become something successful, yeah a university teacher, as a matter of fact a really good one is a great option. At least she would be proud of her 2-3 months, she won't regret and would never feel guilty. I mean do it for her, if that motivates you.
My thoughts should begin translating into action because that's ultimately important. Books have been a great friend of mine my entire life, I should never lose them. Then my coffee deal hasn't worked out a great deal yet, any ways meeting new people is good thing, you should never lose that connection. Worst thing I can do is close my self and go back to my shell. It isn't going to work this time. Real world is a lot tougher and requires you to be at your prime to let you and your loved ones get the best of it. Plus exercising is important, never lose it. Find your passion, give your job a 100% and never have any qualms for what you could achieve and what you didn't had you worked hard. Don't leave any space for that.
What I often fail to realize is that she's on my side. She would love to see me succeed. She would be disappointed if I don't come out good. I know my life shouldn't revolve around that, it's not. But if I ever fail to achieve the goals I set out for me, she won't be responsible ever. You know I always dreamt something like this. I got it now and I am just letting it go. I am a plain simple guy who was in love with a plain and simple girl. She didn't fell for me. This is a fact, there could be infinite number of reasons and even more number of explanations, but they don't matter. What should matter is am I moving the way I would want myself to move, and the ideas that I can still do this and that, They are not negative ideas, but I should realise that there is a big chance that I might never see her in my life again. Now I can stop everything and go after her, stalk her, and maybe try to convince her into loving me back, But is that a solution, no, it ain't. What I did learn was that I am not perfect, and I have to improve a great deal before I get close to being one. One way is to be someone she would have wanted her guy to be. What happens if I don't get her, it isn't a big deal. But for that to happen I have to become something that she would love. If it never happens, at least I'll have a story to tell my grand kids. My daughter, that your daddy loved a girl. Now a grand gift that can be given to her is to become something successful, yeah a university teacher, as a matter of fact a really good one is a great option. At least she would be proud of her 2-3 months, she won't regret and would never feel guilty. I mean do it for her, if that motivates you.
My thoughts should begin translating into action because that's ultimately important. Books have been a great friend of mine my entire life, I should never lose them. Then my coffee deal hasn't worked out a great deal yet, any ways meeting new people is good thing, you should never lose that connection. Worst thing I can do is close my self and go back to my shell. It isn't going to work this time. Real world is a lot tougher and requires you to be at your prime to let you and your loved ones get the best of it. Plus exercising is important, never lose it. Find your passion, give your job a 100% and never have any qualms for what you could achieve and what you didn't had you worked hard. Don't leave any space for that.
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